I kindda got this feeling about my daily activities these days, well not really, it has been 5 days since I started to feel like this, like, what do I call it? Hmm, like I'm losing my interest in the things I normally enjoy doing. Is it because of my education? or I'm already starting to lose my momentum, my youthful spirit to enjoy things? After thinking for couple of hours last night, I've decided that I need to test these questions about myself. I'm not usually the type of person who conforms with the process of growing up. Regardless of how old I am, I believe that it's not wrong doing things that are not appropriate for my age. So, maybe its the stress, maybe its regarding my self conflicts, but all I know that I need to prove that nothing could stop me doing the things I like. I know one day I will come to my senses realizing these kindda thinking are nothing but distractions to delay me for making a better life for myself. I can't always say that I'm still young, because many of my friends are moving on to their next step in their lives. While I, still thinking to make 'having fun' as my first priority. My conscience always there to give me the doubts of my decision making which I pretty much dislike, but I do know its for the best. We'll just see, I can't control the future, but I could make a choice for not doing something that could jeopardize my future.
