I would say the dilemma for this month would be studying hard for my exams. Too be honest, I'm too tired for getting average marks, but yeah yeah I am aware that there's a possibility that I might have not given my best effort yet. It's not like I'm not trying, even when I tried just a little bit harder, its still the same. I don't really want to use my blog as a place where I always put my complaints, but jeez, I'm just not, what's that word, owh yeah, satisfied. I really hate the fact that I'm like just floating around the marking scheme, never the worst one, neither the best one. Gotta be thankful though, for not failing anything so far, insyallah. What should I really do? Not having options for choosing your career path really taking its toll down on me right now. I am starting to feel the pressure, the real world of working and I gotta be frank, I am not ready or prepared. But you know, only time will tell. Approximately, I'll have 1 more year to get my degree, and what then? Am I going to start working like everybody else? Inside an office? Inside cubicles? No, I don't want any of that. Maybe it's just the fear, it could be much better than what I'm expecting.