The purpose of life is not to win.

The purpose of life is to grow and share.

When you come to look back on all that you have done in life, you will get more satisfaction from the pleasure you have brought into other people's lives than you will from the times that you outdid and defeated them.

-Harold Kushner-

Friendships

We all know that friendships come & go, but the best ones always somehow managed to stay the same even though they're somewhere else. I don't usually use my sentiments to make a statement about my relationships with my friends but I guess it's true, I do feel their absences when they're gone. It's pretty hard for me to say this, but I do appreciate my friends very much. They do understand more about me than my family, (I'm not like a rebellious adolescent or something like that) and I do find comfort of telling my personal stuff to them. I know it's cliche' for me to say this and it's even cliche' to say that I know it's cliche', but I don't know if I could ever find people like them again in my life. And yeah I'm still young and it's still quite early of me to say that, but really, if you could see me with them, you would have the same perception or thinking. I really hope my mutual bonds with them would last for a very long time. In conclusion, I Love My Friends and I Hope They will Succeed in Things they want to Achieve in. May Allah SWT bless them in their journey to success.

Curiosity.

It is in our nature to be curious about something, and with the technology these days, its easy to find out things we don't really know (Google). But what about the people who weren't born in this era? Yeah, I'm talking about those times when humanity didn't have a clue or knowledge about the world. Although my friends and I usually talk about crappy stuff most of the time, but somehow we manage to come to a conversation that can really fuck up our minds, or in other words, make us think. Socrates, Plato, Aristotle, these people had their own thinking or perspectives on how the world operates or exist. Their perspectives sometimes could sound pretty crazy, no like real crazy, but when I think about it, they do have some relevant points here and there. It actually got me thinking, humans will always have questions for the things they want to know, but as a Muslim myself, we have been taught that it is not good to be asking too many questions because some things are beyond our ideas and thinking. Sometimes I just don't wanna digest that statement because my curiosities need some clarifications....but I do also know that's not the case here. Sigh, I guess we have to settle with the limited knowledge we can learn or possessed. No big deal actually, just something to think about for the night. Life goes on.

Farewell to one of my favourite characters of all time.

One of things that could help me to get through a bad day is The Office, and yeah am talking about that television show. Well, I started to watch this show last year, where the first season aired 7 years ago. Every time I'm at the DVD shop, I was always tempted to buy their box sets. It took me quite a while to actually buy the first season box set, but I did (obviously). After watching the second episode, I'm totally hooked, and the rest was history. I would say that show inspired and still inspires me with their sense of humour, creative scripts and amazing actors. I just finished watching the latest episode which was the departure of Micheal Scott (Steve Carell). That episode was a great ending to a great legacy established by Micheal. Steve had done such an amazing job for making people to have a good laugh watching him. Although Micheal Scott is a fictional character, he really did make my days so much better. Yeah, I do sound like a big fat loser right now but hey, I'm a fan, the BIGGEST fan, I must say. I really want to have someone like him to work with in the future, but I forgot, I'm living in one of the shallowest country on earth, hence, things like these don't happen often. Enough with that, this post is dedicated to honour him, the Great Micheal Scott and wishing him the best of luck living in Colorado.

It's been a while, because of Twitter.

Wow, the last time I posted something, was like a year ago. I guess I got carried away by expressing myself on Twitter, but Twitter seriously has become so over rated. And I also don't really 'feel' much of feelings on Twitter, if you know what I mean. So I guess this is it, I think I'm gonna continue to pour my feelings in my very own blog again. It's 4am, and I'm feeling quite emotional, so yeah, shut up.

It's Not Reality.

I could be inspired easily, regardless even if its a fictional things like a t.v show or a video game and even from comic books. Sometimes, certain emotions hit me in the head after I'm done doing something. Like watching a movie and suddenly realize that you can relate to the characters and somehow imagine how could you do the same? (to achieve a happy ending). I've been reading plenty of books, watched plenty of movies, listened to many songs. It makes me really passionate about things and it drives me to actually do something with my life or maybe, just maybe that I indulged myself too much in the fantasy world and forgot how different it is with reality. You know, when I watch a movie, I always imagine myself living the life that has been portrayed in the movie. Sometimes I even tried to apply some of the things from the movies in my daily life, both personal and social, yeah call me a loser, I don't mind. Unfortunately, none of the things are applicable. Why reality is so different? Or am I really shallow and too caught up with beautiful stories that only depict the good side of life? But these stories obviously were inspired from real life situations to begin with. So what's wrong of having thoughts to live the lives of the people in stories, am I right? Sigh, I just realize that I left this post hanging for almost 9 months. Hey, better late than never right.

*Note to myself, have to balance my life with reality and fantasy properly.

Tik Tok Tik Tok, it's 2010

So, I haven't been blogging for awhile now, so I will just sum up everything that happened to me in the year of 2009. I still can't believe how fast time flew. And tomorrow, will be a new beginning, a fresh start. But before that, I would just want to reflect back of the events that occurred in 2009. Lets start with my education. Degree, first year ended, 2 more years to go. Learned alot, stressed alot but still suck in terms of results. Not so bad yet not so great either. Once in awhile, after the pressure and stress of the assignments and exams made me tired of studying. But everyone knows that it's just stress talking, and I do feel tired of studying these days. Maybe I realize what is my true calling is....yeah right. Well, enough bout studying, and move on to what I called the highlight of this year. I was in a relationship with my close friend. I thought we would have been amazing together, but I was wrong. We've been through many obstacles by declaring our relationship. It was tough, especially with the ex and her mother. And not to mention of how many people were against it and had their opinions toward our relationship. After being official for only 2 months, we're done. It feels so weird of not talking to her again despite our friendship before this. But who knows, perhaps, we'll be cool for our next meeting. RIP to all the people who died this year including my cousin (refer to recent post). In conclusion, there were so many ups and downs, from participating in Fashion Week for my friend's debut, the return of Aida, to my friend who just left to California and not to mention, gotten into a fight with a former friend. Regardless, I just wanna wish to all my loved ones a very Happy New Year. May Allah bless you people.

Black

You are the bird whose soft wings came
When I cried out at night, waking from sleep.
Cried only with my arms, because your name
Is like a chasm, a thousand long nights deep.

-Rainer Maria Rilke, The Guardian Angel-

I need more to feed my comfort,
give me more, I want the Future,
GaGa, Fashion, Technology, Dance, New York,
More Music, Pop Culture,
I want the Fame,
I can hear You, Can You hear me?
Bullshit,
And I want what we want,
You deserve the Future.

-Lady GaGa-