"How could you trust a feeling when it can disappear just like that?"

- Cindy Heller, Blue Valentine.

An Inspiration

Lady Gaga. Just by hearing her name, the first thing that would pop in our heads is the fact she's an eccentric singer with controversial outfits and songs. Regardless of how famous or mainstream people are, its not easy to please everyone in is this world, because there are always those people who has their own opinions against them. Be that as it may, Lady Gaga is still new in the music industry. But the impact she had made towards her fans (also haters) is really big, big enough to inspire them to create a culture, starting a nation and making their priorities to support her. Some people just stereotyped people who are fans of Lady Gaga are devoted 'monsters' that couldn't give in to any bad opinions towards Mother Monster, as if they're controlled by those bullshit signs of Illuminati. But to me, I find her as an inspiration because she's not just a performer, she fights for people's rights, for their self esteem, for people who has been teased, bullied, thrown into a dumpster due to their differences. You don't see many celebrities these days doing the same thing. It's not like I'm bashing to those who are not, but the fact that Lady Gaga is not only doing this for her fans, but also for herself. She doesn't want others to experience what she's been through in the past. It's a pretty ambitious thing to actually try and spread the elements of equality throughout the whole world, but there's nothing wrong to try. She has all her fans to stand up for her, she achieved success in such a short time and she gives back to her beloved fans, literally. Bottom line, I don't really mind what people wanna say about her, all I know she's real and she has a goal. A goal to make the world a better place....it's quite impossible, I must say, but hey, maybe one day.

Losing the Momentum?

I kindda got this feeling about my daily activities these days, well not really, it has been 5 days since I started to feel like this, like, what do I call it? Hmm, like I'm losing my interest in the things I normally enjoy doing. Is it because of my education? or I'm already starting to lose my momentum, my youthful spirit to enjoy things? After thinking for couple of hours last night, I've decided that I need to test these questions about myself. I'm not usually the type of person who conforms with the process of growing up. Regardless of how old I am, I believe that it's not wrong doing things that are not appropriate for my age. So, maybe its the stress, maybe its regarding my self conflicts, but all I know that I need to prove that nothing could stop me doing the things I like. I know one day I will come to my senses realizing these kindda thinking are nothing but distractions to delay me for making a better life for myself. I can't always say that I'm still young, because many of my friends are moving on to their next step in their lives. While I, still thinking to make 'having fun' as my first priority. My conscience always there to give me the doubts of my decision making which I pretty much dislike, but I do know its for the best. We'll just see, I can't control the future, but I could make a choice for not doing something that could jeopardize my future.